Birth of time
Time was initially constructed in order to serve us and better our quality of living by enabling our society to function properly and by supporting its stability. Through time we are able to measure events, contemplate the nature of existence and even predict the future.
But time became a psychological prison for most, if not for every human on this planet.
We gave birth to time, but now we pretend that time gave birth to us. Furthermore, we believe that it will make us come out of life one day when we die. Time is a powerful and dangerous concept when regarded as a such personal thing because when looked upon from a standpoint of a person who is highly identified with time, you can see that time is really all this person has and that it shapes his entire life.
To break this pattern of thinking we will go deep into understanding how time is a fragile concept. We will do this trying to answer 5 fundamental questions.
1. Where does the present live?
This kind of person we mentioned feels bounded by time because clearly it constitutes his past as well as his future. And what it comes down to is really an issue of avoiding responsibility for the present along with the dissatisfactory feeling about what is happening in the now. When we believe that past influences the present we can easily engage in a game of victimhood. We can blame the past, remain stuck because of it, feel guilty and sad about it and so on. In other words hold onto the past and feel victimized by it in some way because of this belief that present is a result of past experiences.
However, past doesn’t necessarily have to be indicative of, and directly related to present.
Every situation that ever took place existed precisely in the present moment, never the past. The thing is, we came to know time primarily as a linear property of the universe, which is somewhat misleading. This isn’t to say that there is no such thing as causality, but we do not realize the more elusive, cyclical nature of time, except perhaps when we enter some kind of a philosophical discussion.
2. Are we just a spark of life?
In real life, when it comes to dealing with things in everyday situations and our overall sense of existence, time appears linear. Our sense of reality is deeply entrenched in past because past is exactly what brought us to the present. Because of linear progression of time, we consider death to be a frightening experience since it might as well be our last. Therefore we feel insignificant, because after all, we are nothing in comparison with for how long the whole universe exists. In this way, we are but a spark of light that went almost unseen and was forgotten in no time.
So, as opposed to viewing time as linear, if we consider to entertain the idea that life renews itself through different forms and incarnates more than once, continually repeating itself, then you come to know that there is no such thing as a beginning and ending because the essence always remains, in spite of the disintegration of form. This brings about a transformation in a person who suddenly realizes that the present moment is all there is, and that things have always been happening precisely now. So we can see that actually the present influences the present, and that past is non-existent.
Perspective really matters
You could say that this is just a play of words, but actually it is a more organic way of looking at things. Any belief that implicitly hands power to time, to a mere concept – is rigid and stagnant in nature. Life is ever flowing and constantly moving, so holding onto anything from the past proves that you are fooling yourself. There really is nothing you could possibly hold onto. Recreating and reimagining something in your head doesn’t really make it real. So your act of remembrance of something that happened to you is not the event itself, just a mere representation of it.
We do not really see this as true, but actually there is no way for you to remember something without distorting it in one way or another. We influence the past through the eyes of the present moment in many ways and because of this it would be logical to conclude that actually the present influences the past, not the other way around.
Our reversed way of looking at things wouldn’t be such a problem if it didn’t cause us so much suffering as it does. So if we really understand the relationship between the past and the present we can start to take more responsibility for the now by realizing that now is happening always.
3. Does the happiness live in the future?
On the other hand, we also give our power away to the future. Since the past cannot bring us what we really want, we gravitate towards future. People more often than not project into the future in order to escape the past. Since we cannot find happiness in the past, our idea of happiness and being in a state of peace is something that is inescapably related to the future.
Whether you are wanting a new car, house, life, set of personality traits, spiritual awakening or something else all-together – it is all the same, because these all exist because of our ability to imagine the future, and are nothing but extensions of the present moment in which they are taking place. So therefore, we have delayed our happiness into some future point. In our inability to trust life and let go, we have constructed a trap for ourselves and we keep falling into it all our lives, not knowing that the trap existed only because we created it in the first place.
We have been brought up to believe that there is something better awaiting in the future and so we end up chasing things which we think will bring us what we want with a complete disregard for the present moment. We deceive ourselves throughout our whole existence, always thinking that there is something next to be reached. We haven’t looked deep enough to realize that this kind of projecting into the future is the equivalent of withholding happiness from oneself and therefore is precisely the reason for our dissatisfaction with life.
4. Where does this desire for being at peace with oneself come from?
From the lack.
Clearly, it is so obvious, but where does this feeling of lack come from? Lack can only exist if we agree to support it.
We are our own hindrance. We perpetuate lack by helplessly trying to avoid it, run away from it. We are simultaneously running away from lack while chasing abundance. Now, that is a real fool’s game.
Chasing abundance implies that we do not know ourselves as abundant. Our belief system is structured in such a way that we subconsciously integrate lack as an essential part of our default mode. We equated the pure state of being with a sense of lack, like there is something missing.
5. Why do you chase success?
Do you even know what you are chasing for? Is it a feeling? Is it something material? Maybe something spiritual? If you go deep enough into it, you will see that for which you are working for is a projection of lack of the same. And if you really see this as true, you also realize that there is absolutely nothing you can do to change and improve yourself because the mind identified self that is in need of improvement doesn’t exist.
The self that is in need of improvement is nothing more than a bundle of thoughts about oneself and as a thought form, it has no virtue of bettering itself. As long as you believe yourself to be exclusively the person constructed inside your head the underlying buried feeling will be that I am not good enough.
The final answer is…
You’re already there
Pretending that ‘being whole is not implicit of your own nature’ is similar to a bird pretending its whole life it didn’t have wings because the bird was told the wings were not acceptable.
In this process called socialization we discarded the unacceptable aspects of ourselves. So in every single one of us there is the unacknowledged one. The devil. But the outcast hasn’t gone anywhere. In fact, it’s always here, we just simply avoid it by pretending it isn’t here when it really is.
Because we are so convinced that being with ourselves wholly and unconditionally will kill us, we will do anything and everything to avoid it. Essentially, we live in a world of escapism whereas almost everything we do is a reflection not of the wanted and desired, but quite contrary, of that which is unwanted.
So, to sum up…
…it is absolutely necessary that from time to time we stop thinking and let the deeper, unbiased level of consciousness emerge.
It’s time we gradually move from a conceptualized reality into experiencing reality itself , as it is – now.